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[20 Dec 2005|04:51pm] |
OKAY no longer on Catch_the_fire. new ljname is now
bywayof_gnome
got it? good. add me. talk to me. yea. PLEASE! lol
LOVE YOU ALL!!
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[15 Dec 2005|11:52pm] |
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POTLUCK CHRISTMAS PARTY THIS SATURDAY!!
This saturday night at my house (me being the And-eye) 7pm
YES ITS POTLUCK! that means bring food! Bring friends if you so wish as well, but only if they bring food too. ITS POTLUCK PEOPLE! thats what youre supposed to do. bring freakin food.
....tell people for me. I'm busy.
PEACE ~andi~
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[14 Dec 2005|02:47am] |
so basically.... everything we do is wrong. even the things we try to do right by them... is wrong....
blah.
Good luck on finals everyone.
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[03 Dec 2005|08:22pm] |
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now working 2 days a week at the barn, paying half the board.
that means mo' money from Pike. yay paychecks.
paychecks I have yet to receive.
that's okay. as long as I get paid before my credit card bill comes in so I can pay it and my dad won't kill me.
again.
lol so yea anyways.
dinner time. see yall.
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[02 Dec 2005|03:43pm] |
Okay so my back went into hysterics last night or something. And my legs were wiggin out like crazy. I'm screwed.
I came home and did a little research on the ole' tethered cord bit. I havent really been paying much attention to the words I've been reading. I know what they'll lead to.
"You wont walk in a few years. bitch."
*sigh* I am incredibly discontent. Poor me.
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[29 Nov 2005|03:39pm] |
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whoever keeps posting that eat my short shit, i wanna know who you are and i want you to STOP IT. If you're going to post any comments on my site (anybody) make it worth my time. I don't need to be any more pissed off or stressed than I already am.
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| "If she screws up, she could bankrupt us..." |
[28 Nov 2005|12:12am] |
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Words ringing loud and clear in my ears, burning and scarring my heart more and more every second of my life from here on out. It has become very clear to me that no matter what I do, I'm a failure. I cannot do the right thing.
At least that's a little secret they seem to keep... but they let me in on it tonight. Thanks.
And now I want to die. Seriously. Why? Cuz it would be so much easier. Sure that's the cop-out thing to say... but it really would be easier. Some of you may say that this sounds rather selfish. But it's not. I say this holding nothing but the highest regard for all those that I love.
If I weren't here... you could be free. You would never have to worry about the money. The pay cuts wouldn't be so hard to take. You wouldnt have to work more hours. You wouldnt have to help out and pay my credit cards so they can pay my medical bills.
If I weren't here... the lot of you could rest easy. You wouldn't have to bear the burdens of my heart anymore. I wouldn't give you more than you could handle.
If I weren't here... I would have never known pain. I would have never known this suffering. I would have never known this new-found hatred growing within me for You. I wouldn't ever be afraid. I would never fall so many times. Even when I get back up... I'm never any better. Only worse. Only more still a burden.
Think of this... If I weren't this way, I would be HAPPY. I would have the abilities to do all the things that I love so much in my heart. I wouldn't have been afraid to leave home and I would have gone away to college... and I'm quite confident that had I gone away to school, I would have done better in my classes. I would have had more energy. I wouldn't cost everyone in my family so much freakin money. And I wouldn't add such an emotional burden on the hearts of those that care for me. Now do you understand this little smidgen of a reason why I'm so damn tired of this?
I cry and cry. Night after night, I plead to You. You say that You love me... You tell me that You care, but when I need You...
All of this... yet day after day, morning come and gone I still awake unhealed...
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[22 Nov 2005|08:32am] |
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He came.
We shopped as a family.
We danced.
We sat by the fire roasting marshmallows.
We watched our daughters cook for us.
We danced a little more.
We curled up tight in each others arms for a movie.
Then we embraced one another and said goodbye.
It was good. It all felt so right. So natural.
And now I remember what I wanted all along.
And he's still with me.
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[16 Nov 2005|11:07pm] |
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I GOT A JOB TODAY!!!
Kyndall and I both got jobs today, actually. She got a job at IHOP. She's good friends with the night manager, actually. He's pretty cool. Gamal. Yea he's awesome. I just realized that everything is in bold. o well.
So ya, I'll be working at Pike's Nursery on 78. YAY DIRT! I'll be working mornings Friday-Mondays, then heading to the barn from there to work and ride.
I have a date Friday night, too. woot. It's a double date so it'll be a lot less racking lol Kyndall's date is Clay--this guy we met at a show and went to IHOP with... and my date is Kevin. Yes Kevy-poo. The guy we met... at IHOP. Yes, we live around IHOP. It is our lives. lol
k gnite
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Well, I have a new roommate. Woo! Kyndall moved in, but unfortunately, her departure from Taryn's house stirred up all kinds of flavors of STUPID in Taryn, and now neither Kyndall nor I are friends with her. Yay. :\ I was just starting to feel comfortable around her... sortof....
Anyways, So Kyndall lives here now. We're already having a blast living together. I mean, I know we're still with my family, and we dont have our own place lol But living together is something she and I have wanted and talked about since our obsessed-with-the-Backstreet Boys-preteen years. And now we're talking about possibly moving to Athens next fall, so we can both go to school, have our own apartment, work, and well, duh, get wasted. lol jk
Blah I had a lot I was going to say but I forgot it all. dangit.
I think Curtis may be coming here this weekend. I hope. *crosses fingers*
btw, I finally sang at Kareoke at Pipers lol
it owned.
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[12 Nov 2005|03:41am] |
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So today didn't suck too badly. The bad part of today was that we found out that Ace has some injury... he'll get the next several days off from riding, most def. Poor baby :( I'm sad. I bet his leg hurts somethin' awful. Mine would.
mine does actually... hmm...
Kyndall and Taryn came out to help me at work today. That was nice of them. Yes. Yes it was. Then we all came home. Got clean. I met up with them again at Woody's to see a few bands play. Black As(s)? Day lol and Death Gospel or something. Idk. I only heard the first one play. I left after the first two songs or so of the second band cuz I went to see some of my other friends across the street at IHOP. (Beth, Amber, Leslie, and Katie) But at Woody's I got hit on by this guy named D-Ron or something like that. I cant remember. But lol haha ahhh gosh... I told him my name was Kyndall (we all had diff names for fun rather than giving all the douches there our real names...) and that I was from Fort Lauderdale and I was visiting Kyndall and Taryn--who were really Brittany and Emily. They both attend school at UGA. Brittany (Kyndall) is majoring in one of the art programs, and Emily (Taryn) is majoring in Voice. I, Kyndall, am currently attending Broward County Community college, where I am (like for real) getting core classes out of the way til I figure out what I want to go for at one of the state universities. So anyways, He introduced himself, asked me if I wanted another drink (it was coke!) I said I was fine, thanks (cuz I was) then we talked a little bit. I dont remember what we talked about. He asked me if there was any way he could get a number from me. I just looked at him and laughed and said "hehe no" to which he said "aww why not?". I said, "theres no point. I'll be going back to Florida pretty soon. I'm just staying with these two for a little while cuz Im taking the semester off from school." He said... I cant get over this part.... "I have a car to drive down there..." To which I stared at him stunned like I'd just seen a drunken deer impale a snowman... "I'm not gonna let you come see me in Florida...!" Then I turned to Brittany and Emily cuz they said something to me and... conversation with Dick-Rod slowly disapated after that. I dont know how to spell that. I dont care.
*sigh* I saw my friend Jonathan. He came to IHOP with us. God I miss that guy. :(
( bored )
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okay..... wtf?!
Today was cool. Skipped W.R. and went to Starbucks and Joel's isntead. But when I got there, Joel left to go take someone somewhere and so I was alone in his house for a good 45 minutes. So I stole his hat, took a nap, played with his dog and watched a heck of a lot of E.R. God I love that show.
Then I went to my psych class. Took a test. Did okay. Didn't fail *woot* left school, went to Mikee's argued with him over a shower, stole his dad's chocolate, said hi to his mom, um....we went to Galaxy, drove around forever looking for fucking SunTrust, got there, it was closed, left, went to Auto Zone cuz my car is broken or something, idk. went back to his place dropped him off (oh yah we watched Dodgeball at his place before going anywhere yay!) Then i went to babysit GOD I LOVE THAT KID!!
okay. so. I had an interview at Pikes today. It went really well. I felt good about it. My interviewer felt good about it. The other manager that wasnt there for the interview felt good about it. Yeah. I may have a job before the end of next week. WooT.
k gnite
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[10 Nov 2005|12:39am] |
my head hurts. *whines*
and I forgot to take freaking pictures of Larry and Stevo.
damnit.
Amber I love you. I heard you were feeling a bit under the weather. I hope you feel better. :( Lets do something as soon as you're better. Just not today... today being Thursday. But very soon!!
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[08 Nov 2005|01:49am] |
Never again will I take my cat to the vet.
Okay thats a lie. She goes back in two weeks.
Stephen has been here all weekend. And Kyndall came home yesterday afternoon. Its a full house. Yay Darin Hotel.
Okay I'm ready for it to go back to normal now.
I feel hurt and betrayed.
I feel crushed and deliberately shut down.
Thanks Stevo. **grunts**
And now I will go write a paper for a class that I have tomorrow... for which I have in no way prepared myself.
.woot.
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[02 Nov 2005|11:52pm] |
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I was on myspace and i saw this thing that seems to be going around cuz i've seen it about 20 times now, but its this thing where you go to google.com and type in the search bar "[your name] needs" and you just see what comes up.
I did it. cuz I'm bored.
something interesting came up.
I dont even know what the whole thing said. but it just caught my eye very quickly because it said "Curtis' girlfriend Andi..."
wow.
shoot me.
He got his new road bike. So I think we've officially started training. You know, the thing where he does all the work and all I do is feed him when he's around and support and encourage him all the time. He wants to do the Tour de France. And when he does, I'm going with him. I'm going to travel around and be waiting for him at the finish line of every stage. I'll sleep in a tent probably and possibly hate every minute of my travels because I will be alone, and I may want to be home the entire time. But it will still be worth it. Cuz I will be the one waiting for him. I'll be the one there for him every step and/or pedal of the way. And I'll be the only one he knows in the country. Maybe then he won't get so distracted and he'll actually see that I'm always here and always have been.
Just maybe...
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| where ya from? JERJAAAAHH!!!!!! |
[30 Oct 2005|07:54pm] |
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lol okay wow... that guy Kevin from IHOP called me tonight. I think he works at the place we all went to last night, that house in Snellville--what was it..... oh......... Bloodshed. thats right. haha thats funny. So yah, he works there as far as I know. haha omg wouldnt it be funny if he was that guy that jumped out of the blocks and then followed me to the door of the room like eyeing me up and down? Omg how funny would that be ( lol )
Okay so lets get this one down... Who is going to the Copeland show this weekend? Lets get a show of hands here....
Btw- Thanks ladies. This has been THE BEST weekend EVER! I love you all!!!!!
and Beth.... I may think that your house is extremely ugly... but that does not mean that I don't love it. :) I think that it is perfect exactly how it is! I just felt that you should know that lol
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...yea... ill post pics tomorrow ladies lol
STEPHEN IS COMING TO VISIT ME!!! OMG IM SO EXCITED!!!!
I'm like... in love with him! AND HES DRIVING UP FROM FLORIDA TO SEE ME THIS WEEKEND! He'll be here tomorrow night :) God I cant wait to see him!! I love this kid so much! haha our families are betting that we'll get married. We've all always said that One of the Letizia boys and one of the Darin girls would get married.... And dear Stevo and I are basically the only ones left available... lol ah why the hell not, right? I'd marry him! lol
Anyways... need sleep. badly. goodnight.
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| WHAT?! @%*t(#%u*&($#)t*g)#*q#@%)t*#)@$* |
[27 Oct 2005|09:10pm] |
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Hola. ma llamo Andi. Yo ma gusta mucho Ace.
Outbreak. I think thats what it was...
OKay. I wanted to edit...
I dont need to explain myself to you.
All I want to say is dont talk to me. I can't take your crap right now, so just back off, please, okay?
Thanks.
What you said was rude, condescending, and innappropriate and i refuse to take such words from you. You dont judge me or my faith. You dont tell me that I dont make time for God just because I cant make it to church. My faith is my own. No one can tell me how it is but me and God.
if you could just quietly step aside now that would be much appreciated.
( ...and this is how I feel about you now. )
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[26 Oct 2005|06:41pm] |
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round...
My saddlepad came in today. wee. I told Ace about it. He walked away from me, and I swear he was shaking his head in complete embarrassment. ...did I spell that right?
I took 6 HOURS doing my work today. Which sucked. Cuz I went in a lot earlier than I usually do so I could get home A LOT EARLIER than normal so I could actually write this stupid flippin paper that's due TOMORROW. But no. I take forever. Why? Don't know. I'm just slow I guess. What I do know is that I'm pissed. But not only because of this... I realized today that yesterday's sudden need for departure from school was not just a one time thing. I'm pretty sure I'm sick. I feel a lot worse than yesterday... and I won't be surprised if I'm like, on the bathroom floor screaming by the end of the night. And now I'm incredibly freaked out, cuz I was talking to my mom--who is also SICK-- and she says she was having similar problems. Only now hers have gotten a LOT worse. Her ears are constantly ringing (mine are now too, btw) and she feels sick like I do, and she keeps feeling like she's about to black out.
I dont want to black out.
So yah. I'm like.... ugh.
Oh, yea.
So I get home, talk to my mom, feel freaked, and then right before I hop in the shower, my cousin calls. Which isnt bad... except I was about to take a shower. So I talked to her for a little bit... Then I had to lay down for a while cuz I felt like freaking shit after that. FINALLY I'm able to get up and take a shower. When I get out of the shower, I had that really hot/freezing cold feeling you sometimes get when you get out of the shower when you're like REALLY REALLY serioulsy ill. I freaked. ...and cried...
Then my mom threatened to take the dog for a walk. So I ended up taking the stupid dog for a walk instead. Oh well... but of course on the walk she decided to run away from me about 4 times. *shakes head* ugh. weird dog.
So now I am here. About 5 hours LATER than I had wanted to be, finally able to sit down and write this flipping paper--which, I discoverd by reading the very unclear requirements about 100 times over-- requires sources that I do not have here at my disposal. I'm sick. I can't go to a library. Or anywhere for that matter. If I go anywhere I'll probably end up causing some sort of epidemic and sheer mayhem among the human race, like that one movie with that one guy and the monkeys... what was it called?
eh... oh well.
So anyways.... maybe if I'm unforunate yet oddly lucky, I'll end up not being able to go to classes tomorrow morning and I'll have the day tomorrow to write my paper as well, and I can just drive it up later in the afternoon and drop it off at my professors office--at which he is never present...
God I can't wait for this week to just BE. OVER.
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